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Name: Kimberly
Location: Reading, Pennsylvania, United States
Birthday: 1/29/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: I am a uber Hello Kitty fan and i do so enjoy collecting just about everything with her on it. I am also interested in almost any type of movies. By the way i also collect Maleficent and Jack skellington art and figures. If you have a problem with any of that then you can just get the fuck off of my site and go fuck a rail road spike! "Put that in your pipe and smoke it mr. chuckles!!" Hahahaha. Kisses!
Expertise: Spending almost every free moment playing a game or trying to be with my Love, Timmy!!! When my controlling "rents" are not getting in my face i like to go ice skatting or to shows.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  ReBornSoul17@aol.com
Member Since:
6/20/2004
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| like i said before... my myspace account is now my full time journal and if you need the name then just let me know.
Things with Tim are over for good now. He has admitted to no
longer loving me as anything but a friend. Its hard to
think but we will have to learn how to just be friends. He has
changed so much and i will always be his friend and he will always be
my Best friend. I will miss having something more between us but
for Tim, its over. I am going to move on this time and start
dating other people.
I would like to think that i am Not trying to forget Tim but instead
moving my feelings of affection to another so that he and i can remain
friends. If i just stay single i will let my feeling for Tim stay
and control me. I still am CRAZY about him. But i will just
love him as my friend. There is some one i am interested in but i
dont know how to feel about that.
One part of me feels happy because that way i wont be missing Tim and
trying to get back together if he doesnt love me... but then the other
part of me says i am a terrible person because i am not waiting very
long after Tim and i are over. But we have been on and off
for over a month, i just never thought it would be ALL
over. I have to learn to stand on my own without needing
him all the time... i still want him with me every moment.
This is going to be hard but i will always love him. Even if we will only ever be friends.
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| i have stopped posted on here... mostly on Myspace.com now... if you dont have the name let me know and i'll give it to you
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| wow things have been so messed up and hard these last two weeks.
Tim and i keep waiting for things to get better but they seem to just
get twice as bad. He is having So many family problems and my
emotional issues are both getting totally out of
control. neither one will seem to let
up. I cant stop getting angry or sad and i know its not my
time of the month so i dont know whats going on. this has
to stop thought!!!
and with me being so unstable tim is really on his own dealing with the
problems coming his way. Going to see his sick great
grandad today was so hard on him. I didnt know what to say
to make him feel better. i love him so much but things need to
calm down soon.
i know everything will get better its just a time when we are both
being tested to see how strong we are. clearly we are both
winning and losing at the same time.
i love you tim!!
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| i am just so pissed off and depressed tonight.
Tim is pushing me to my wits end!! he really just doesnt
seem to give a shit some days. i thought he was going to call me
to let me know if we were together tonight but he didnt even remember
me until it was convenient for him. the i guess he went out with
his friends. GRRRRRRRRR....... the days i
am supposed to spend with him he spends with other people which FUCKS
up both my time with him and my time with other people.
I HATE THIS SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh and by the way I AM BULIMIC AGAIN!
ISNT THAT THE SHIT. my body image is
so low that i would rather risk dying than be fat one more
day. I DONT EVEN CARE ANY MORE. i have not "mood" any
more and i cant stand to be crushed one more time.... Its Not
Healthy!
Tim's mom's family has been so messed up lately that i dont want to be
around them at all. they dont even speak to either of
us. i dont understand what they have against us or me
but they need to get over it because i didnt do anything rude or mean
to them.
IT WAS MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY AND THEY DIDNT EVEN SAY HELLO!?!?!
what the fuck is wrong with every body?
Why does no one care about anything but them selves. I am try to help and it just never gets better.
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| i dont think this day could have been any worse!!!!!
i dont get it... why does my "lady time" have to
happen over my birthday week end?!?! That time of the month is
always the worst for me, i am mean and so sad... i yell at tim
for stupid reasons and i cry at the drop of a hat.
i get stupid and i think silly thoughts.... i think tim
hates me, i think he is tired of me and wants to be left
alone... i think i should kill myself and
leave the rest of the world in peace.
he is better off with out me i
guess he was so
tired when i left that he didnt hug or kiss me good bye... i
cried all the way home because i was depressed but also felt really
like he just didnt want me around any more... i know its my own fault
but i would have done anything to be able to sleep over but i
couldnt. i just hate being so mean and angry over
nothing... i can see how it hurts and confuses him.
i feel so low and so sad... the knife he was messing with
is right here on the table and i cant stop looking at it...
fuck it, i am going to bed before i get really stupid!!!
Night all.... i miss you so much tim, i just saw you but the
happy little bear kim didnt get to see you since
monday. I love you and you mean the world to
me. 
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